| One Birthmother's story | |||||||||||||||||
| How It Came To Pass |
In 1971,I had my first child,she was the most beautiful little girl.Little did I know, that her father would dersert us,and that,what was about to happen, would change my life forever.She was only 14 months old, when I became homeless,and had no resources to fall back on.My husband having left us with nothing but,the bills.I was carrying my second child, at the time. I was forced to go to the state,where in the end ,having nothing to offer my baby but my love,I had to sign away my rights as her mother ,so that she would have a real home,not just the restroom at the bus station. I left the judges chamber,a broken hearted mother,wondering if I would even find a place for myself ,and the child I was carrying. Or, would I loose this baby also? I began to question my faith in a heavenly father,that would let this happen to a mother who loved her baby so very,very much. I found it almost impossible to go on.But,for the baby I was carrying ,I would have ended it all right then and there.Any mother, that has been thru this,will understand what I am saying. The greif is almost too much to bear,knowing that you can never hold your firstborn again.Never to see their smiling little face again,and never to hear the little one,call you Mama ever again. | ||||||||||||||||
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Well as they say,time stops for no man and I might add,for no mother either.I gave birth a few months later,to another beautiful baby girl. This time I had a whole church to back me up! I was not going to part with this child! She became my reason for living,and going on.I divorced, and remarried.And then,I began a search that would take another 25 years! I decided that no matter what,I would find my firstborn! I made sure that my new family knew about my firstborn,and what had happened. The years kept going by and everytime,November 14th came along ,I would mark off another year,with tears and depression.My daughter,and husband,and anyone that knew me,realized that ,that one day of the year,was indeed a day of mourning for me.I really don't know how they put up with me,but they did,and I will be forever grateful to them for that.Just when I thought that I was beaten in my search,I found her! The tears of happiness flowed! Not just from me ,but from her sister also.She was just fine,not harmed,or dead,as I had dreamed so many times.I was shocked,happy,and scared all at one time.My shakey faith in a, heavenly father was renewed!! And then came time to go and meet her,and her wonderful mother.This was scary!! to be sure. | Time Goes On | ||||||||||||||||
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| The Reunion,and Joining of The Two Families |
I was invited ,by this angel of a mother,to come on New Years Day,to her home and reunite with my long lost daughter.I must say,that I was more scared then anything! But,I soon found that I had nothing to fear.The reunion went better then I had ever dreamed! My first daughter was very warm,and understanding of what I had ,had to do so many years,before.She, and her sister,were very happy,over the phone.She has two wonderful brothers,and their familes. I'm so sad to say that her father,had passed away 3 years earlier,but not before, he and his wife had done a fine job of raising their one daughter.The two families are as one now,and her mother(that angel or,saint,haven't figured out which yet!) and I, are the best of friends.We are planning a trip together later this year,so that the two sisters can get together,in person.While the mom's run off to the beach ,to see the lighthouses! Her mother is somewhat like the big sister,that I never had. Words Of Encouragement; So, for all of you who are searching,beleive me there can be a happy ending,it is not always bad.Keep searching,keep praying,and my prayers are with you,all. | ||||||||||||||||
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